hi dears, sorry sorry sorry for not having posted for such a long time, but there is a reason which made me stay away from blogging the last days ... it's all positive, indeed it is ... and beautiful. i've fallen in love. i've fallen in love oh so deeply - finally having found my other half, as described in platon's symposium, but never found before, the one who makes me whole, the one who forced me into happiness - and i never imagined i could feel like this, with no fear, and no doubt, with being so happy and feeling so much at home, no matter where, but always with him ... and i believe this time ... it was worth it all. all the struggles, all the fights, all the pain and all the tears i have shed in the course of my superficially somewhat short life. time is temporary, not sustainable - it's only a mere number. it doesn't count ... it doesn't count anymore.
and i couldn't be any happier.
i'm feeling whole.
i'm starting a new fashion: i'm wearing my heart on my sleeve. because i cannot get hurt - with you my by side.
i love you.